The last time I had a full time job (one that I got paid for, anyway) I was 7 months pregnant with Jayde and working as a Special Education Assistant...that was 10 years ago. I would drop O’Shae (then 19 months) off at my mom’s before work (Rob was on the night shift, so he’d be sleeping when I left...two ships passing) and would pick him up after. Since then I have been a stay at home mom, employed by, in my opinion, two of the sweetest, smartest, most beautiful...and let's just call a spade a spade here, at times, the most frustrating people I have ever met. This job has been the most demanding, emotional, amazing and fulfilling one I have ever had. It was what I wanted to be when I grew up!;)
There is a great youtube video out right now that comes to mind as I write this, called Worlds Toughest Job, for Mother’s Day....it’s brilliant and makes me cry every time. (I know, me crying? Shocker!)
I’ve given my job as “Director of Operations” aka Mom, everything and still do! But now that this author thing is really taking shape, I have another “real” job, besides being “just a Mom” (For the record, I hate when people say that, as if it’s not enough.) There’s been so much that has gone into this book becoming a reality, more than I ever realized. So much happens behind the scenes. These blogs, (which I love writing, but I write like I talk....a lot, so that’s been a learning curve in itself;) the constant editing, meetings with publishers, editors, managers, publicists, working on the website, did I mention the editing? I am doing something for the book every day! Don’t get me wrong here, I’m not complaining, or claiming I that I am the hardest working woman in the world, I know that’s not true. What I am saying is that this whole experience, although awesome, has been an adjustment for me. I have forgotten what it’s like to juggle having a child/children and a job. It’s hard. There’s simply not enough hours in a day. My house, that is usually clean (at least on the surface) looks like a hurricane hit, my laundry room...ugh....clothes to be folded are mixed up with clothes that need to be washed (oh, who am I kidding, that’s usually the case...I hate laundry!) and dinners have become progressively worse. (KD anyone?)
I guess what I’m saying is, as exciting as this is, it’s also been overwhelming and honestly, I’m a little freaked out. I have been a mother for almost 12 years, and I know I am a good one, but I worry if I’m good enough to do both. How do all you working moms do it so well, and make it look so easy? Wish me luck....